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loss of words…

Steph — Mon, 22 Mar 2010 02:49:46 +0000

every year i step onto the land where i was born, and i feel a familiar sense of “home”. everything so familiar, and so easy to acclimate. i thrive, possibly because i am on vacation mode…with no actualization of the real day to day. yet, a short 13 hour flight later, as i walk through the gates by the immigration officer, and hear the words “welcome home”, i feel an odd sense of joy and the anticipation of walking back into familiar routines.

upon my return to my daily routine, i find myself reflecting on a very simple concept: who am i.

i no longer know the definition of fundamental concepts, such as me…and on most days, i am not quite sure where i belong. i live with an everpresent fear of not fitting in but i know there are those who love me, who care for me because of me, because of who i am, and not who i project. oddly, these same people are not my kin. i hide my true self from those who claim to love me most, because their love would require me to wear shackles i’ve learned to shed.

perhaps more of my mindless mumblings to come later…

alien…

Steph — Thu, 26 Feb 2009 03:35:43 +0000

there are days i feel like an alien in a very human body. i play at human emotion, seek out human companionship…and yet, i feel like i never belong. rarely do i think someone sees me…truly sees me for the person that i might be, and the person i want to be…

the noises that are rattling in my head…does it make me…disturbed?

~ciao

eating my way through taiwan…

Steph — Tue, 20 Jan 2009 00:00:05 +0000

title pretty much says it all… =)

i don’t think i’ve stopped eating since i got off the plane…interesting thing is that i don’t think i’ve gained any weight either…probably because to get to the food…you’ve got to do this massive walking thing…lol…

will write more later…

ciao

happy 2009!!

Steph — Thu, 01 Jan 2009 17:34:49 +0000

may this year see you and yours happy, healthy, and prosperous…

here’s to waving goodbye to a 2008 wrought with more downs than ups, and hoping the new year that will bring us more ups than downs…

~ciao

Christmas 2008

Steph — Thu, 25 Dec 2008 20:32:09 +0000

once a year, on this day more than others, i find myself reflecting the meaning of family, and this season. in times of economic uncertainty, massive layoffs, bank failures, my family is still able to say we have some measure of monetary stability, a roof over our heads, and really each other to count on…

beyond anything else, i’m thankful for that. i wish for the same stability next year…and really, i think that’s all anyone can wish for…

and on a side note: in less than a month, the man who this country has pinned all hopes on will take the office of the most powerful man in the world. i watch him, and realize that i pin my hopes on him as well. i hope that he can do all that he promised…and while i realize how much all that creates a monumental burden on his shoulders, i somehow have faith that he can lead this country to where we need to be. perhaps that’s naive on my part…but i insanely subscribe to his slogan of “yes we can”. maybe that’s what this country needs, to be together finally to strive for the same goal…

anyway…merry christmas to you and yours…or happy holidays dependind on your religion… =)

~ciao

children today vs children of yester-years…

Steph — Fri, 05 Dec 2008 01:20:30 +0000

everyday i take the E train from WTC to 14th street…as anyone who takes public transportation knows, you end up seeing the same set of people daily. you may never know their names, but they are familiar faces. for me, the E train means i will see a little girl…probably no more than 10, carrying a huge backpack, going from west 4th street to 14th street.

seriously…when i was 10, i was driven to school, picked up after school, and never knew the inside of the school bus even. but here she is, carrying this huge bag half her size, and going to school by herself…maybe i’m cynical, maybe i’m still holding on to that subsurbian mentality…but i just can’t see allowing my 10 year old child jump onto the subway by herself that early in the morning.

am i just cynical? thinking that anyting can happen from west 4th to 14th street? i don’t know…

maybe just me…

~ciao

HAPPY TURKEY DAY!!

Steph — Fri, 28 Nov 2008 03:54:35 +0000

happy turkey day all…this one was a little more low key than years past. only the immediate family this time around. the exciting new thing would be to wake up in a few hours, and go with my brother to the black friday rush sale. i’m not so sure why i’m doing it…maybe it’s the fact he’s buying us the tv for xmas…lol…things we’ll do for a good gift…lol…