July 20th, 2004 | No Comments »

READ THE NEXT POST FIRST BEFORE YOU READ THIS ONE!!!!!!

i don’t believe in god…never have. at least not the christian god…nor do i believe in any other defined deity. there is a higher power i’m sure…but i wonder what they’re doing…napping it seems.

christians believe the suffering is necessary to find salvation…logically speaking, after suffering your entire earthly existence, even a slight improvement would be better wouldn’t it? so is god playing a psychological game with us?

“here, i’ll fuck up your life for the next 80 years…and when you finally die, i’ll give you a taste of the party…”

of course you’re going to think you’re in heaven…but isn’t heaven what you make of it?

what’s heaven…angels, harps, half naked kids with wings and some funky looking white people? i call that texas on acid. my heaven would be to always be with those i love and care about…but i certaintly do not have the disillusion that is someone else’s version of what heaven is.

so where is your merciful god when you’re suffering? when you see the pictures of children covered in blood crying in desparation next to the body of their mother, now broken and unrecognizable, where is your god? where is that omnipotent god when bombs are flying and wives are losing husbands and mothers losing children. where is the omniscient god you hold so high. why is he beyond judgement?

you allow government to manipulate your faith, you allow yourself to be sent back to a time when believing in another faith equated with barbary. who is barbaric? every holy book advocates forgiveness and tolerance…the commandments tell you to love thy neighbor…but you have to read the fine point:

“love thy neighbor…but only if they’re christian, believe in the same things you do. in case they don’t, you’re more than free to kill him in the name of religion and say that you’re serving god’s will…”

does that make sense to you?

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July 20th, 2004 | No Comments »

as images flicker
fire and brimstone, proverbial hell on earth
i am at once humbled and definant
humbled at the absolute power of destruction
defiant in the face of such shameless and frivolous display of uselessness

they believe in you;
to take their suffering
to lead to salvation
but where are you when a child suffers without a mother to comfort
where are you when a man cries in desparation as he feels a dull blade on his skin

who are you to dole out rewards
who are you to judge me when you allow no one to judge you
show me the mercy you’re renowned for
and i will show you people who are willing to listen
show me your absence and apathy
and i will show you the real world

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