cagey…wanting something but never knowing what exactly it is…always wanting more, never enough. when is it enough, when it it too much. questions swirl, answers never to be found. restless…pacing…animalistic. need to hunt, need to prowl, need to be hunted, need to submit, need to dominate.
taste of the score, need for the game…life a never ending cycle…weight of the world crashing down. unable to breathe, unable to think, unable to speak. how can life be sustained this way, mere survival, living just a fantasy. hands grapple with unexplained darkness, feeling for familiarity that doesn’t exist. something, there has to be something, oh god, please…
guess what, the map of life is wrong…welcome to uncharted territory. keep your hands and feet inside the ride, but even if you do, this ride will fuck you up. welcome to the nightmare you’ll never wake from…welcome to the hell you’ve created…
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a little depressing? yeah…just read something and this is the direct emotional response. laterz…
steph