you know..i was thinking, if you made the whole intire house yellow i think it would reduce your fears/nightmares by 727% percent..but thats just me..
love you
~holeinsock~

Browsing over Dave’s site and came across your site and came upon this entry, just felt I had to write. So how have you been stranger, moving to your own house, eh? And I used to think that I was old. And moving to chilltown (JC) no less…hehe you will like JC, it has its own unique flavor…with both of my best friends from there…you learn to appreciate it…sometimes…

As to being scared thats normal, you are leaving the comfort and security of your home nest and venturing out into the unknown. Getting a house is another step into adulthood, the biggest is having a kid, but we won’t even touch that subject. As to all these “What If” questions, just more cogs to be added to our complex mechanism of life. And yes life does/and will continue to be more complex and suck, as dave puts it, moose cock. Bye bye relatively carefree life, hello worrying-away-the-rest-of-my-life.
Its like entering college for the first time, a new adventure, but one with consequences.

Getting and living in a new house creates fears (heck it’s a BIG responsibility), fear of managing it, fear that I am way over my head, fear in what if I lose my job and can’t pay the mortgage. When we have these fears, our imaginations take over, and what do we do, we imagine the worse case scenario. Lets say something does happen to the house (knock on wood), you will always have your family and friends to help you in whatever scenario. No matter how bad it can be at least you will always have those people in your life to fall back upon. But in your nightmares you are losing your friends and family, now I don’t know about you, but that is one of the worse things that could ever happen to a person. To be alone…that’s one thing I would not wish on anybody …to be by yourself…truly is a nightmare.

But cheer up that not going to happen and your friends and family should conk you over the head for thinking of such thoughts…and yes these thoughts are normal, its how you deal with them.

So what to do, move in the house and deal with the problems as they come (if the come), learn from them, and find out that they aren’t that bad as you imagine them to be. It’s a part of life and as much as we want to stay in security of our youth, life goes on.

Sorry for the long winded comment, but this scenario sort of hit close to home, different subject matter but same plot, just all these fears that keep popping. With the poor economy, war, and terrorism on top of getting a house will make anyone collapse from all the worrying/unknowns. C’st la vie…