January 10th, 2003
well dears…it’s friday night…and i’m realizing my social life has taken a nose dive in recent months…not that i’m really complaining…and this i think may be the reason i’m getting old. i’m not in the mood to go out anymore…or maybe it’s that i’m becoming anti-social. certain people annoye the shit out of me…and i can only stand the company of some. *shrug* - oh well…so, i’m perfectly content watching dateline, and trying to decipher the damn camera user manual. it’s a freakin novel…and i swear it’s not written in english…*checks the manual* hmmm…i wonder if the little label on the top that says espanol means anything? *scratches head in confusion* oh well…
i’m looking forward to a nice and quiet weekend…just hanging out with me…and myself…and do a little studying…yes…studying. *sigh*
well, this girlie is on her way to an exciting evening…g’night everyone…
oh and psycho…if you read this…TOO MUCH INFORMATION!!!!
January 9th, 2003
yeah…i’m not certain the people sitting there doing jury duty today at the middlesex county courthouse are proud…more like bored out of their minds and wishing they were anywhere but there. hee hee…fortunately that’s not me…although i was summoned, i was excused. so, woohoo!!
and about the lottery…didn’t buy a ticket…considering the statistic that it would be easier to get hit by lightening than win the lottery, i just dont’ think i have that kind of luck.
so, update on the nice gentleman doctor…apparently he’s never been out of taiwan (great…), he’s educated…but he was thinking of a more traditional woman for his wife…HAHAHAHAHAHA…sorry, i’m thinking that i’m anything but traditional here. but alas, even in the face of that, my parents would like me to “meet and make friend” with the dude. and i say sure…bring it on…i’ll have him crying for his parents in under an hour…*grin* oh, what’s that you say? be nice? fine…i’ll give him 2 hours… =)
ooh!! i’ve got some pictures too!! thanks to my friend perez, who seems to be the keeper of all pictures in our little group, i’ve got some more pics of friends…i’ll see about putting them up tonight or something…
well, i think i may just be babbling now…i’m just not motivated enough to do work…i hate all users at this moment…they can all go and suck me…wait…don’t do that, i don’t think i’d enjoy it too much…well, except for these couple of people…*thinks about it* nah…just kidding…that would be wrong on all sorts of levels…
okay, 30 minutes left to the work day…and i’ve gotta finish up…later!
January 8th, 2003
i think i should buy a lottery ticket today…and here’s why…
1. my train was on time (which never happens)
2. i was standing by the door when the train finally pulled to a stop
3. i got a nice, hot cup of tea first thing in the morning!!
see, i just might hit the jackpot seeing how lucky i actually was this morning (or is that pressing my luck?)
on the down side…and here’s a really funny one…my parents have recently decided it was time for their daughter to marry…so, on my trip to taiwan this time, apparently my aunt has picked out a gentleman doctor for me to meet and make nice with. hmmm…make nice with a completely stranger who i know is there because he can’t find a suitable mate…*thinks about this logically*
okay…so here’s my question…what’s wrong with the guy if he can’t find someone on his own? i mean…hello…dating services!!! christ, have you seen some of the pics on these sites? and they get hits…what’s wrong with this dude? *thinks about it more* - eh, it’s hurting my head…
you know, i dont’ see myself as old…and i’m not seeing myself as a spinster…why is it that my parents are insisting i go on these match making things? it’s not like i have such a long time in taiwan as it is…it’s cutting into my shopping time! sheesh…you know, the consideration of my parents…just because they go back every 3 months…i haven’t been back since the millenium and i’m itching to shop…*shakes head*
okay, so what do you guys think? do i go meet this dude, make nice…and as my mom puts it…make friend? or do i give him my usual “who the hell do you think you are and why the hell are you talking to me” attitude? i think i may go with the latter since that’ll be more natural than me plastering a smile on my face and pretend i’m interested in what he’s saying…
okay…gotta run off to users…*waves bye*
January 6th, 2003
one of these days i will make my parents understand that i’m really not 5 anymore…i’m an adult, and i can make adult decisions. of course, until that happens, i should just suck my thumb, and soil my diapers or something. just very very frustrating.
nothing much else today…2003 started with the same shit as 2002, the damn train was late…was as crowded as ever…and some dude gave me an evil glare because my coat was over the middle divide of the train seat…little bitch of a man…arrrgh.
i wish i had the answers to life…almost feel like i should…and sometimes the answers seem to be right within reach. if i just looked a bit harder, concentrated a little more…then i can see it, i can grasp it. but it always eludes me, as if it’s taunting me…dangling the carrot in front of the beast…so i go on…always thinking tomorrow will get better…but it doesn’t seem to. there’s bright spots, mind you, but on the whole, it’s never really better. i think i need to get the hell out of this right now…for my sanity, for my mental well being, i need to get out. once i do…i’m never asking them for anything again…they’ve more than taught me…asking my parents for help, is only inviting pain.
January 4th, 2003
okay…watching this ER show on TLC…for whatever odd reason, there’s a 15yo who’s absolutely delighted that she’s having a baby…15!! - christ, when i was 15, i can barely keep up with my classes…the 18yo boyfriend is all excited too…that’s just terrific…what the hell happened to “hey, i want a future”?! the girl’s all with the pictures of domestic bliss…then there’s this junkie who shoves shit up her nose a week before she’s due to deliver…WTF?? god damn…this is the shit that we live in? *shakes head* gotta love this world.
and on that note…back to this reality…i think i’ve finally decided on a digital camera…the canon S200 - i can’t wait. since i’m going to be running all over the place for the next month and a half, i wanted to have something to document all the travelling i’m doing. oh yeah…in case you’re the few that i never told where i’m headed…here goes:
going to vegas for a business trip (yeah…business in vegas, psha!) - staying at mandalay bay casino
then i’ll be back, for a week or so…then i’m heading out to good ol’ taiwan *does a little dance of happiness* sooo happy about that. i’ll be there for chinese new year (for the first time in…shit, 16 years!!) - i’ll be shopping up a storm with the rest of the population, and probably picking some stuff for friends (yeah, right)
then after taiwan, i’ll be back for a week or so, and i’m headed out to canada for 5 days of skiing and relaxation courtesy of the lovely trishy (and her family) - soooo looking forward to it…i won’t be at work for longer than one week at a time in february…i’m going to get back in march and wonder what the hell work is…lol…
la la la…i’m all excited about this…i haven’t travelled for such a long time…and this…will be amazing…i’ll definitely be sure take lots and lots of pics. i’ll post them when the time comes…
anyway, got tons of shit to do…never enough time to do them, so i’ll be off…*blows kisses to all*…ummm…wait…*snatching the kisses back*…sorry, those are saved for…ummm…someone special. *blush*
*runs off into the sunset*
January 3rd, 2003
first post…how absolutely exciting…i’d jump and down if i had enough energy. in any case…this will be a brief glimpse into my life…*shudders* - it’s actually kinda boring if you ask me, but then again, maybe this satisfies the voyeur in you..*wink*
i’ve decided to come out of the closet…yes…i admit it…
I’M A BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER FANATIC!!!
ahem…now i feel better…if you want to take a looky yourself…here’s buffy
i’ll be ranting and raving…about random things as i always do…so feel free to chime in, or tell me to shut the f*ck up…*grin*
so with that, i will end my first post…
oh yeah…if you’re feeling brave, maybe you want to read some doodling that i call writing here
ciao!